Leah, I’m so sorry you’re having an extra tough day! Please keep in mind how many people are on your side and sending love and encouragement! 💜 you are teaching your daughters an amazing lesson about strength and courage and determination, even on the days it’s harder to find a smile. And PS, YOU LOOK AMAZING without hair! I honestly think the “real you” looked better than any of the wigs! Laura M
Thank you, Laura. It fills my heart with so much love to feel the support from all my friends and family near and far like you. Feels something like "It's a Wonderful Life"... just glad to be here for it.
One full trip around the sun. Slingshot into the unknown by breast cancer. And back again. Spoiler alert... I won. I'm still me. Only better. My self discovery in a nutshell: I am a firefly. I shine brightest amid the darkness. I am a flamingo. I hold my head high, born to stand out. I am a phoenix. After going through hell, I come out on fire.
OK, it's a been a minute. A month to be exact. Sorry I went dark. If I'm honest, it's because I went dark . The morning after I finished chemo, I woke up to the reality that my journey was FAR from over. Oh, my optimism, my mortal flaw. To my dismay, I hadn't suddenly woken up to feeling normal, looking normal... and it hit me pretty hard. Just to the contrary, and to my utter heartbreak, I CONTINUED to lose my looks. In fact, I'd say, the very last of them I had remaining. My eyebrows evaporated. My eyelashes evaporated. My confidence eVAPorated. Go ahead, call me shallow. Call me whatever you'd like. But when you go from beauty to beast, it's soul-crushing. Today I look like an old, dying grandpa. Receding hairline, sunken sallow eyes, gray skin... nothing even makeup or wigs can solve anymore. So yeah, I've laid low. Week one post chemo was hard. Week two was harder. My mastectomy was approaching and all of the nerves, second-guessing, and worry b
I keep telling myself there is only ONE way this thing’s gonna play out. A big fat W on the board and it’s all mine. Then some heavy bass song fills the gymnasium, beautiful dancers flood the floor hitting all the moves, skirts flitting faster than you can bat a lash. Everything in perfect synchronization, then they split apart and poof! I’m there with my arms to the sky then lifted, flipping up, over, and caught by - where’d HE come from?! - My husband! And in some stunner coordinated ensemble. He pulls me down, pulls me close, then kisses me while swinging me around in circles, lights flashing like shooting stars, crowd goes wild… [ End dream sequence ] Y'all. Today is a BIG. A$$. DAY. I’m seeing my surgical oncologist for the first time since I was told I needed to undergo chemotherapy. I’m pretty sure imaging will be involved to understand progress and we’ll begin to plan and schedule next steps on surgery. The veil is about. to. be. lifted. You can run, but you can’t hide, m
Leah, I’m so sorry you’re having an extra tough day! Please keep in mind how many people are on your side and sending love and encouragement! 💜 you are teaching your daughters an amazing lesson about strength and courage and determination, even on the days it’s harder to find a smile. And PS, YOU LOOK AMAZING without hair! I honestly think the “real you” looked better than any of the wigs! Laura M
ReplyDeleteThank you, Laura. It fills my heart with so much love to feel the support from all my friends and family near and far like you. Feels something like "It's a Wonderful Life"... just glad to be here for it.
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